I was listening to this song in my car today and I felt the spirit. Sometimes we don't give God the credit He deserves. He is the reason for everything.
Today I have been struggling with life. I try not to ask "Why?" because I know God has a reason for everything. I am blessed in so many way and I take that for granted sometimes, I know I do. When I sit back and think about this I feel selfish. My mind just seems to go in a million directions sometimes and I think about all the things I don't have and get depressed over it. It is not that I want lots of money or material things, but I should still give God more thanks than what I do for the things I do have.
My job: God has blessed me with a job I love so much. Everyday there is a blessing to me. I love the people I work with; they fill my soul with so much joy and I couldn't ask for better people. The Cadets, they make me laugh, they make me feel important...the things my job requires me to do for them may sometimes get overwhelming, but in the end...when they commission and I see the smiles on their faces and their families faces...and when their families thank ME for what I have done for them..Oh my gosh...God, this is one blessing I thank you SO much for! My dad was so happy that I got this job...so happy. He would tell everyone about it and I can still hear him say, "I'm proud of you Sylvie."
My home: I live in a wonderful apartment in a nice neighborhood and my landlord trust me. That is a blessing in itself. She trust me so much that she asked me to be the property manager here. I have had the experience of renting out properties, handling money, and just taking care of things around here. This is a blessing to me, for one, that I am able to help out. She lives far away and can not get here for lots of things so I do what I can. Second, I get the experience of knowing the ins and outs of the rental property business...and most importantly...I have a roof over my head. There are so many people without homes right now due to weather troubles..they may be homeless...or maybe they just don't know their way. God, you have blessed me with a roof over my head and for that I am SO thankful!
Friends and Family: Within my life I have came across many people. Some have come and gone, but those most important to me remain. I don't get out much..I don't really go anywhere or hang out with anyone, but I do have friends who care about me. I have friends and family who love me and would be there for me through any storm if possible. I take this for granted because of the fact that I don't go anywhere or do anything...with them. I stay at home and I make a phone call here and there, but I know I can do more Lord. I am so thankful for the people in my life. So many have wiped tears, been with me through heartache and pain, helped me out when I was about to hit the ground and I am SO thankful for all of them. I pray, Lord, that you help me to put these people in my life more often..to put more smiles on the faces of those I love and to be there more often when I am needed. Thank you so much for those who love me Lord.
Feeling: Lord, sometimes I cry. Sometimes I get lonely. Sometimes I hurt, both physically and mentally. Sometimes I'm so tired I can't hold my eyes open and sometimes I am wide awake due to all the caffeine. Sometimes I am able to feel others pain and I am able to comfort them with kind words or a hug..or sometimes, just a smile. Thank you Lord for giving me feelings...feelings of sadness, happiness, worry, regret...love. Some people don't have this, or they don't care if they have it so they hide it under all of their layers never to show the world. I do..and I show my feelings often and I know that is okay. I thank you for these feelings, Lord. Thank you for my heart, it is so big and I see so much of my dad in my heart Lord. He was such a kind and gentle person and he always expressed feeling...even when he was in the hospital Lord..he said to me, "Sylvie, don't worry about me, I'm going to be alright." He knew I was hurting Lord and he wanted to comfort me. He knew that no matter if he stayed alive or if he died that he was going to be alright because he was in Your arms. I thank you Lord for feeling.
Memory: There are some things in my life that I simply can not remember, no matter how hard I try, there are some things I have blocked out of memory because those are not parts of my life I wish to dwell on, and there are those memories that I hope to never let go. I have memories that make me laugh, memories that make me cry, and memories that make me ponder...I enjoy my memories..With memory I am able to bond with people..share experiences...make people smile. Memory is such an amazing thing to have and this is why I thank you for this..Thank you Lord for memory.
I could go on and on and on for the things I take for granted that the Lord has give me, but I will need to sleep evenutally..haha. God is so amazing. For a long time I always tried to hide God. I thought if someone saw me pray they would think I was wierd or would not want to hang with me. I finally grew and I noticed that those people who serve God are "In it to win it!" as Randy Jackson says on American Idol. I am in it to win it. God has done so many things for me and showed me the way. I was struggling so bad a few years ago and then I decided to pray before I eat even if I was in a restaurant by myself...I decided to tell people who were complaing about how awful their lives were to Trust in God without hesitation..I decided that if I do not live for Him, who am I living for? My dad raised me to love God, to love everyone..to Follow God and let Him lead the way. When I started doing this my life did a 360! I have pushed and pushed and pushed to show people how great He is and sometimes I don't push enough and I start giving myself credit for the things that I could not have done without HIM. I am SO thankful at where I am right now. I know I have more to accomplish, but I know that if I don't let God lead me to those accomplishments they will soon become failures.
So, ask yourself.."Without God, who am I?" You may find yourself falling to your knees asking for forgiveness...I pray this to be so. He is amazing...if you don't believe me, well, try Him out for yourself!
